Trusting God with what's behind the door
You know those team-building games that are supposed to develop trust, the ones where you close your eyes and fall backwards, believing that your team members will catch you? I can’t do that.
I trust other people. I know friends have my back. I don’t always have to rely on my own strength. Do unto others before they do unto me is not true. I know that.
And yet I still struggle with absolute trust. I hesitate to reveal sensitive information about my life. Too often I hide my true feelings, even from myself.
If I am not careful, my lack of absolute flows over to my trust in God. I blogged once about my house, and how I show guests all of my house except the linen closet, which, unlike the neatness of the rest of the house, is a total mess. It’s the place to put things I don’t know what else to do with. Shove it in the closet and forget it.
I surprise myself sometimes when I go rooting around for something and find items I forgot I had. I compared my closet to my faith. I have faith in God for most things, but there is always that closet of “stuff” that remains mine to control.
Obviously I have a control issue. I am sure God put Proverbs 3:5-6 in the Bible just for me. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.”
No matter how much I know, no matter how hard I try to control my life, God is the one who has the power to prepare me for tomorrow, not me. I need to trust God with the issues in my closet, the mistakes I have made, the things that need correcting but I don’t know how, the unknown future.
I need to trust God with all things. God knows this will not be easy, and He is putting stones in the path for me to practice stumbling over. I can’t say I am enjoying it, but I TRUST GOD to know it is best for me.
What is holding you back from a total relationship with God? Maybe it is time, or lack of practice stones blocking your way. Whatever the issue, if there is something in your life that is bigger than you, give it to God. He has your back 100 percent. And when you come to my house, I MIGHT give you a peek of the linen closet!